THE SITUATION

just stop.
just stop spending money.
stash your last hundred away in a sock and lay down in your bed and feel broke and just lay there and stare at the ceiling until you feel an affinity to it, this will be good for you later.
(make sure you get enough water and call people that love you.)

you wonder when you should break your fast. you are sure that your body will tell you but you fear someone else will tell you first.

you have summoned the courage to change the situation and suddenly you have no appetite and no patience for bullshit and you know that its go go go time.