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because he would be out from wednesday on, working saturday nights and generally drinking and sleeping all day sunday, monday was their official day together. at some point he became offended that she sometimes wanted to do things with groups of other people, together with him, on monday. he felt she controlled the monday activities, which was true. she tried her best to make it the funnest day it could be in order to compensate for the suffering and lonliness she endured the rest of the week. he seemed to be unaware of this part of her life. she chalked his ignorance up to his lack of confidence, he didn't believe he could have any effect on her. furthermore, he doubted her loyalty every second of every day and was so disgusted by his own inability to control her that his desire to see her dwindled down to almost nothing. she saw him, in ten years, being the kind of married guy that is constantly telling his friends how much he hates his wife. married with children style. and just the thought of having children with him in this state made her heartbreak, for the future children and the job she would have to do, and thinking about this and wishing he'd sober up eventually completely killed her libido, which he took as a sign of his total inadequecy and her lack of love for him. he became more removed and tyrannical. she packed up and left.