THE LONG HARD ROAD OUT OF HELL!

this is my first blog. this blog is for everyone i lost contact with through my seperation from my husband, including myself. it has been over a year since i gave him an ultimatum and walked out, still i have had surprisingly few conversations about it. this may be due, in part, to the fact that i have had surprisingly few conversations in the last year. i admire very much what seems to be couragous self-improvement on the part of my friend fred, who led me to blogspot, and many others who i have visited recently and who may or may not read this. in the end im doing it for me and in order to make myself a better friend to these people because at the moment i am centered around my own pain in the kind of unhealthy way that makes even the people who love you dearest wish you werent around. at least thats how i feel and thats why im opening myself up in this way, and in other ways, including two exhibitions planned for this year and two in planning for next year. my drawing is my therapy, only when drawing do i feel like i truely understand anything at all. i desire to bring this feeling of belonging that i have at those moments, usually alone in the studio, out into the light and out into the world, and into language. ive started writing short stories about my experiences in coping with this deep pain that is upon me which i hope to publish in book form one day. for now it can be found here, on blogspot.