Sunday, April 18, 2010

SIGH

you didnt tell me
bells would fall from the sky
you didnt tell me
so many people that i loved
would die
you didnt tell me i would
forget how to cry
and grow heavy and dull
and just sigh
ITS HORRIFYING
BUT THERES NO DENYING
my grey hairs are
ganging up on me
theyre gonna try and
take me
but im
unbreakable.
my roots are
unshakable.
go ahead
overturn the table.
youll just have to
pay the waitress later
and feel ashamed
of yourself
im just gonna stand here
the girl with the empty grin
and the excellent timing
who taught herself
all of these things

and all i can do is sigh for you.
all i can do for you. is sigh.

the wind

you tell yourself
no thats not him
whispering noises
right outside your door
like a little faerie
to test if youre asleep.
you hear the wood floor
creak but i assure you
its just
the wind

dont tell me

dont tell me bout ma baby.

dont tell me what she do.

some women they may cut you

but she may shoot you too.

your crazy

DO NOT LET THEM
TAKE YOUR CRAZY
AWAY IT IS ONE OF
OUR BEST WEAPONS
AND WITH ITS
POWER WE WILL
OVERTHROW
THEM.

this ring

this ring
hangs heavy and loose
on my finger
like a bad boyfriend.

"for no reason"

i dunno what happened
i couldnt hear nuthin-
he texts-
call you in a sec.
you thought he had
picked up and you were
in his pocket at work.
you waited and listened
to garble.
when you get his text
the radio grumbles
and you wonder
if the SWAteam
is about
to descend on your house
just for having known
all the wrong people
having discussed
your drug and sex
fetishes
openly
on every public forum
ever invented
during your lifetime,
and
for being happy
inspite of them.

lets just say
you wouldnt be surprised
if you were arrested
"for no reason"

unecessary pain

i am painfully gorgeous today.
when i look in the mirror,
a wave of pain
washes over me.
on days like this,
other people often
feel it too.
i see the wave
of pain
wash over
their irises.
what is this?
lordy lordy
i wish itd go away
unecessary pain.

how the fuck do i know that?

the reason i knew it was ok
for you to move in was
i could tell
and would know
i guess
from experience
somehow
that if you and i
were just breaking up
and already living together
i would not
move out
it would be
uneccessary
i knew
we could live together
in any conditions
and not be uncomfortable and
how the fuck
do i know that?

babystate

you get so high
so buzzed
you get tired
and all you
wanna do is
shit yourself
suck on something
and fall asleep.

you are in
this moment
completely
incapable
of respectful
interaction.

business time

you look super cute today!

she exclaims

like shes surprised.

she hasnt known me

very long.

yes, i say, its business time.

she laughs like maybe

this is just a flight of the conchords joke

and not also actually true.

but it is.

infact.

business time.



"business time",

when watched from outside,

looks very similar to

"free time"

im just

not talking

to you.

a political foe

the dali lama has said today

that he would like to travel to the area

to comfort his people.

china has yet to comment

on his offer,

but sees him

as an exile

and political foe.

my hope

my hope is that.

one day. theyll say to themselves.

she made a song every!day!

and she has

no! equipment!